Somehow...

Do I really need to have someone right now? Is it really a need or just what I wanted? I’ve been trying to figure things out. What do I really need in my life now? I have this wonderful life now. I don’t need to waste time thinking of any school projects. I have already a job which supports only me and nothing else due to some society crisis. LOL. I have friends which make me happy and in some ways makes me think that I am really special.

Somehow, things that I don’t see bother me for some stupid reasons, I don’t have it and I want to have one. I have questions that need a lifetime before it will be given an answer and answers that need questions.

a deep and sudden realization...

This time I realized something very important that I always take for granted. I know I am special in some ways people sees that I don’t see. It takes too long for me to realize these things but not too late to know that I possess such qualities.
For times now, I have been the source of jokes and a good example of a person that they love to make fun of. Sometimes, I try to take every silly thing they do (not to silly) and get a little bit annoyed.

There are also moments that I prefer to keep silent just for them to stop making fun of me. But sometimes I just love what they do and I love it now. It is because one person close to me helps me realize those things. I realize that I should never stops throwing jokes, however horrible or nonsense it may seem. For I know, me without uttering a single word makes a cheerless moment and even with a single word can make the word a nicer place to live in.

comments from my thread in facebook..