Somehow...

Do I really need to have someone right now? Is it really a need or just what I wanted? I’ve been trying to figure things out. What do I really need in my life now? I have this wonderful life now. I don’t need to waste time thinking of any school projects. I have already a job which supports only me and nothing else due to some society crisis. LOL. I have friends which make me happy and in some ways makes me think that I am really special.

Somehow, things that I don’t see bother me for some stupid reasons, I don’t have it and I want to have one. I have questions that need a lifetime before it will be given an answer and answers that need questions.

a deep and sudden realization...

This time I realized something very important that I always take for granted. I know I am special in some ways people sees that I don’t see. It takes too long for me to realize these things but not too late to know that I possess such qualities.
For times now, I have been the source of jokes and a good example of a person that they love to make fun of. Sometimes, I try to take every silly thing they do (not to silly) and get a little bit annoyed.

There are also moments that I prefer to keep silent just for them to stop making fun of me. But sometimes I just love what they do and I love it now. It is because one person close to me helps me realize those things. I realize that I should never stops throwing jokes, however horrible or nonsense it may seem. For I know, me without uttering a single word makes a cheerless moment and even with a single word can make the word a nicer place to live in.

comments from my thread in facebook..

sometimes...

Sometimes, I want to feel the love of a man. In rare moments, I find myself wishing for a guy who can treat me as an equal yet love me with passion. And the passion is not sex. It’s the passion born out of love. Someone who is willing to be with me as I find myself.

Pero wala akong makitang lalaking ganoon. I have this fear that men meant for me doesn’t exist. Maybe I was afraid to be alone. What a sad life. Don’t call me pathetic. I don’t need a man. It’s just that maybe I just want to experience that little bit of happiness brought by the love of a man. But not just any man would do. I am not asking for everything. Its only the love, the passion, freely given at hindi demanded. And of course, that man must be a real man.

I want a man who understands me, na makakausap ko ng hindi ako mahihiya. Mali ba na gustuhin ko ang ganoon? God can’t seem to hear me. so, if you have accidentally read this, can you tell him for me? He should at least erase this yearning, this silly dream.

I am prepared to be alone, maybe. Living alone and dying alone doesn’t frighten me. What frighten me is leaving this world without ever feeling loved even for a moment.

Someone ask me out.....for a drink(sigh)

Someone ask me out for a drink. Half of me wanted to go. It’s also been awhile. But, I am at the abstinence stage for now. Trying hard to be a good daughter and a citizen as well.

This is my last day

This is my last day. This could be my last day. I get sad if I think of it. A while ago, I bumped into an old colleague. I’m happy to know that he already get what he wanted. It’s really true that when you want something you will really have it in the end. Eagerness is what I wanted. Well, I think so. I don’t want to try for I am afraid of taking the risk in the end.

virtual friends..

Today is another day...Well, still wished for it. I have already found some friends..virtually…hehehe…we may not be physically talking but still they made my day more enjoyable. I hope that this will be a good start. I’m afraid for if I get hired, I will be choosing a graveyard shift. And that would mean that we will still remain virtual friends..

Its not purely work after all

This is supposed to be my third day in my tryout at a certain company. It is a hot sunny Wednesday. Unfortunately, I still need to end another 2 days here. I like what I’m doing. Its not purely work after all. I can still browse over the net. I can still have time to take my merienda. But what I don’t feel is the scenario inside the workplace. No one is talking. Every one is busy holding their mouse and looking straight at their monitors. Ako pa naman yong taong ayaw tumahimik. I think I am an example of a girl na makakakita ng frend kahit saan. But it didn’t work here.
Yes, I am happy because I have been dreaming of this work. I know it defines me. I still remember when I had my first interview. Someone ask me if I don’t consider my writing skill as one of my strength. Hmmmm…It’s one of my passion. Does strength and passion make a difference? Well, I don’t know.

leet speak

Leet, also known as eleet or leetspeak, is an alternative alphabet for the English language that is used primarily on the Internet.
It uses various combinations of ASCII characters to replace Latinate letters. For example, leet spellings of the word leet include 1337 and l33t; eleet may be spelled 31337 or 3l33t.
The term leet is derived from the word elite. The leet alphabet is a specialized form of symbolic writing. Leet may also be considered a substitution cipher, although many dialects or linguistic varieties exist in different online communities.
The term leet is also used as an adjective to describe formidable prowess or accomplishment, especially in the fields of online gaming and in its original usage, computer hacking.

can someone translate this??
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from...wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leet)

can't we try...???

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside

uniisys report...

I gotta feeling...that tonight’s gonna be a good night…

That was supposed to be the class team song last march 19 when CS and IT 4 students proudly present their project. Yes, it was really a good night because the class successfully launched it. And I am also proud that I belong to that class.

Without biased, UNIISYS was really a great system especially when talking about the effects it brought to the whole group. Team work, hard work, courage, optimism, even pessimism are just few of the things we exerted and learned from each and every one. It cannot be denied that all put forth efforts just to make March 19 possible.

All those sleepless nights we had are nothing when compared to the feeling when we finally reach the finale. We are happy because we will no longer have sleepless nights, deadly days and tiresome meetings. But it still makes me sad thinking that moments like that will never happen again even if these things are the cause of my haggard face, wrinkles, pimples and eye bags.

The best thing I learn from all these things is DISCIPLINE. Like every one else, organizing what you have to do are the best things you must learn in order to make things perfect. Yes, I admit that before I really don’t put extra effort on meetings. Waking up early in the morning was so hard for me. But soon I realize that since I belong to the group, I need to lend a hand and follow orders. Like one saying goes, “in order to be a good leader you need to be a good follower”. It may not be that big but I know that the success we have now will never happen if I did not tried to give every best I can as part of the group.

UNIISYS launching was one of the best memories I will treasure for the rest of my life. But this end is just only the beginning right? Well, still looking forward for every beginnings in my life…

I will give a little review of what is UNIISYS for those who don’t know what it means.
UNIISYS is a web-based system developed primarily intended for the benefit of the University of Southeastern Philippines (USeP). It is developed by students from the Institute of Computing (IC) to provide online services for the University students, faculty, staff and visitors as well. It is composed of subsystems which caters various services to different service recipients.

The system is divided into various subsystems that offer a variety of services web-based. Unisys is composed of the following subsystems:

egayd
An interactive directory map designed to guide guests and visitors in their way around the University campus.
Agila
An interactive Geographical Information System (GIS) of Davao City that displays information about major establishments and landmarks
ebenta
Is an online auction where members of the USEP community can engage in E-commerce activities and competitive entrepreneurship.
etudlo
Provides an environment for tutorial service seekers to look for and enroll in subjects offered by registered student tutors.
ehatag
It addresses the need for easy file sharing between and among the members and non-members of the USEP community.
eskular
It simplifies the scholarship renewal process in the University through its online grade submission and approval features
eskedyul
Allows users to set and organize their schedules and appointments with other users without having to meet face to face.
Alumnay
Records and organizes the profiles of USEP alumni after graduating for easy tracking.
epahibalo
Is a bulletin board system that caters the need for exchanging accurate, reliable, and up-to-date information among and within organizations in the University
edikit
Is a portal for members of the USEP community to publish their articles and creative works.

please visit UNIISYS at uniisys.usep.edu.ph